I feel a bit stagnant these days in the creativity department. I find myself having little motivation to cook for my family let alone cook and bake for my blog. I seriously have been feeding my family a lot of take out, frozen veggie burgers and Top Ramen. Life has been a tad messy around here, and I can't seem to keep my head above it all. With the chaos I find that my work and my passions are taking a back burner. During the days I have no time or energy to bake, photograph, and write. At nights after the kids go to bed I just want to shut everything out and not worry about clients, stats, and social media.
When these feelings first hit, I thought I was just suffering from blogger burn out and that's why I wasn't able to put out a couple blog posts a week. Then I stepped back and really LOOKED at life. I'm not burnt out because of blogging. I still enjoy it, and I love my work and I miss it. I'm burnt out because I'm a parent.
All parents will agree, kids add so much joy to your life but with that comes a new set of stresses and work. This past year has been particularly hard. Issues with our public school and my oldest son who is 7, a 2 year old daughter that makes Dennis the Menace look like an angel, and 5 year old son who has a lot going on inside of his little noggin.
Chase (my 5 year old) is a special boy. He is sweet, cuddly, funny, and smart. But over the last year we have started noticing some strange behaviors. After a couple of Dr.'s opinions we THINK he has sensory induced tourettes. He still needs to undergo some more observation before we come up with an action plan that will hopefully reduce the frequency of his tics.
Chase is very sensory oriented, he could play in sand or with play dough for hours and hours he loves the feel of it in his hands. During those moments when he is in the moment playing in his sand pit he is at his best. He doesn't act out, he is easily able to express how he feels with words and he has no visible tics.
But then there are other things and feelings he just can not cope with. My days are filled with battles trying to force him to wear a certain pair of shoes, putting on clothes (at 5 he is still naked and won't wear them unless forced) he obsesses over being itchy. He won't cover up with what was once his favorite fleece blanket because it is too fuzzy. He doesn't like jeans because they are itchy on his legs. He won't let us cut his hair because the feeling of the clippers is just too much for him. Brushing his teeth is an unbearable task. He can't handle the feeling of bristles, they tickle his tongue and gums. He claims all toothpaste (even the fruity fluoride free baby stuff) burns. There are so many little behaviors like this that most people would say "oh that's just normal kid behavior!" Well to those people who doubt me and what I have observed with my own son over the last year.... no these are not normal behaviors. Perhaps if there were just a few, but he has dozens of things that cause disruptions, outbursts and facial tics that he can not control.
He has some days where his tics are so bad (swallowing, eye blinking, neck rolling, nodding, clearing of the throat) he can't get his thoughts across to me. On those days we have tantrums and outbursts. I want to take as much time as I can to spend with him and help him control his behaviors but I'm finding it vary hard to do that while juggling the other two kids, school stuff, taking care of the house, and my work.
As a joke last night I told my husband, "I'm going to post Top Ramen on my blog just so I can get a blog post up." It may have seemed like a joke, but I was dead serious! I have nothing else to share with you folks this week because I seriously eat like a broke college student!
This Dorm Room Spicy Peanut Noodle Soup is made up of some basic staples I always have on hand. Ramen, Sriracha, peanut butter, and whatever veggies I have in the fridge.
And guess what.... it is actually really freaking good. This was the best dinner made in under 5 minutes EVER, and I think 2 servings cost about $.80.
Dorm Room Spicy Peanut Noodle Soup
One package Oriental flavored ramen noodles
1/3 cup creamy peanut butter
1 tbs Sriracha (or other brand of Thai chili sauce)
1 1/2 cups of whatever veggies you have on hand I used broccoli, bell pepper and radish
*other add in ideas, cilantro, scallions, carrots, water chestnuts, bean sprouts, peanuts...
Prepare ramen according to package directions. When it is time to add the noodles, toss in your veggies as well.
Once the noodles are cooked, mix in peanut butter and sriracha. Serve hot with as much or little broth as you like.