Monday, July 8

Ollie Cakes

Ten years ago I bought Stevie a puppy. We named him Ollie after the skateboard trick (Young Steve was quite the skater kid...)





Ollie was what I like to call our clearance sale puppy. He was one of about 16 pups, the only one not chosen for adoption. He was fatter than the rest of his brothers and sisters, and had been badly stung by bees all over his face, so he had some scabbing when we first got him. We saw past that and only saw the cutest darn puppy in the world.
At the time we had thought that being a black lab, he would get no larger than 60-80 lbs and be a medium to large breed dog. Ollie broke the scale as he grew... to a whopping 120lbs! He was a beast.

 



For many years it was just Stevie, Ollie and I. He came with us everywhere. Slept between us in bed. Kept me company when Stevie was working late.  Went with Stevie skateboarding. Came with us hiking. Loved to swim with me in the river. Jumped with us on our trampoline.... it was quite the sight! Got into more trouble than any other dog I know. He had so many of those doofus Labrador moments I could write a book! He was like our first born child.  Until of course our babies were born. Though even then he was a HUGE part of our family.






My brain knows  that it is time. Ollie needs to peacefully go. My heart hurts so bad having to make that choice. Tomorrow morning at 9am we are bringing him to our vet to be put down. I can't even put into words how it feels. All I can say is that I love my dog so much and will miss him tons.





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47 comments:

  1. I knew I shouldn't read this. Dammit. *tears*

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    1. You can join me.... my tears have been flowing for 2 days now :(

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  2. My husband I went through this with our first dog a few years ago, he had a massive amount of cancer. The worst part was that the vet said it was my "choice" as if there was another option. Even though I know there wasn't a choice, it made it so much worse for me than if he had just died and I had no part whatsoever in it. So I totally understand how hard this is, it was the first time I ever saw my husband not just tear up, but sob. My heart goes out to you and your family, I hope you feel lighter soon. Hugs :)

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    1. Thanks Jackie. Yesterday was the only day I've seen my that upset also. It is never an easy thing to see the men your life break down. I'm not sure we will ever be able to get another dog after this. I never want to be put in that possition again. Making the choice to end his life was too painful.

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  3. Aww, Carrie. I am so sorry for your and your family's loss. In my opinion, you're making the right decision to take away Ollie's pain. Losing a pet is so hard on the heart but yours will mend. Big hugs.

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  4. Oh Carrie! I'm so sorry. :( I'll be thinking of you guys tomorrow.

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  5. We just went through this in March with our beloved Boston Terrier, Ziggy, and it's still fresh and raw for us. They are very much like our children, and that's what makes it heartbreaking. Know that I will be thinking of you and sending you & Steve lots of hugs.

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    1. Thank Jeanne. It is so hard! They become such a big part of our lives.

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  6. Crying with you, this made me so sad. I'm sorry, my heart aches too. Been there.

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  7. So sorry, Carrie! That decision is never easy - hugs to you and your family!

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    1. It is not easy, such a sad day. Thank you Laura.

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  8. I'm so, so sorry Carrie. My thoughts are with you and your family tonight. :(

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  9. Awwww... I'm so sorry. I remember our family dog passing when I was in high school. Saddest thing.

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  10. I'm so sorry and can't even imagine how you must be feeling. My thoughts are with you, Ollie and your family.

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  11. My heart aches for you and your family, Carrie. Sending you big hugs of comfort

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  12. I am so sorry to hear this Carrie!! My heart absolutely breaks for your family and I hope y'all are able to find comfort in this time.

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  13. Oh, I am so sorry for your loss. You are doing the best and right thing for him, even though it is the hardest. I'm thinking of your family during this tough time.

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  14. I will definitely be praying for you tomorrow. I have two dogs and they are truly like your kids. Great post with lots of good memories.

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  15. Makes me tear up...I love our "babies" 16 yr old cat, 9 yr old rott/dobi and a 2 1/2 yr old rott/husky.....I am so sorry for you and your family. *hugs*

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  16. I am so sorry - that had to be one of the most difficult days of my life. I am praying for you and your family!!

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    1. Thank you Stephanie. It was the hardest day of my life so far.

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  17. I'm so sorry Carrie! We have a black lab too and your puppy picture of Ollie looks just like our Jessie. I dread the day we'll go through what you guys are. My thoughts and prayers are with you guys!

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  18. OMG Carrie, I have no words. Tears are filling my eyes and there's an ache in my chest from reading this post. Ollie was such a handsome boy. I'm glad that you and your family had so many wonderful years with him, filled with endless memories I'm sure. I thought I used to understand how attached one gets to a pet but I had no idea. Now that I have my own puppy who I love more than anything, I can't begin to imagine how you're feeling. My thoughts are with you and your family!

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    1. Thanks friend. It BLOWS. Probably one of the hardest things I've ever done. We miss him terribly.

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  19. I'm so sorry. Ollie seems like he was a great dog and brought a lot of joy to your family. Sending lots of love and hugs today.

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  20. Oh it pains me to read this - I am so so sorry. There is nothing much worse than losing a furry member of the family. I'm sorry. Prayers being sent your way!

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  21. Carrie,
    I am so sad to hear this news. I know how hard it is, particularly with having children grieving the loss too. We just lost our lab last month. Yesterday was the first day I haven't cried about it. But as soon as I realized that, I started to cry. It has been a few weeks now, and it is starting to get easier, but there will always be that special place in our hearts for him. I know you probably feel the same way. Lot's of hugs coming your way.

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    1. Thanks Katie,

      This makes me feel not as bad. I've been blubbering for 2 days now (and 2 days leading up to the vet appointment). I'm glad I'm not alone with the tears. So sorry to hear about your lab. They become such big parts of our lives it's hard when they aren't around anymore.

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  22. Our furry family members are a huge part of our heart. I faced this same decision 4 years ago and again almost a year ago.
    All I can say is my dogs taught me to be a better person and that we were both well loved.
    *passing the kleenex and a cold nosed slobbery wet kiss*

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  23. Aww, I'm so sorry. It is always hard to lose a family pet. But it is especially hard when you must make the decision. I'm sure you made the right choice.

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  24. It is so hard. But the love we get from them makes it worth it. My thoughts & prayers are with you all.

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