I am at a loss of words, I don't know what to write. I do know I don't feel right posting a recipe and writing a fun blog post right now. I feel shitty. I am not that articulate (go figure... blog writer and all HA!) to explain to you all how I as a mom am handling the thoughts of having your child ripped from your life. I just can't.
We all have different ways of expressing our feelings and coping with a tragic event. I for one can't get the images out of my head. I want to do anything and everything I can do, to prevent this type of senseless act from happening again.... I have been in touch with my local legislation, I have written letters and drawn pictures to the victims families in CT, and I want to do more..... That could have been one of children's names on the list of the 26 killed on Friday.
So in my day of silence (partial day... I cheated a couple times!) I came to some conclusions.
1) I am addicted to my smart phone. This is not a funny addiction, one that I can poke fun at like my addiction to baking... hence the blog name. This is a real addiction. I have my phone in my hand at all times. I am constantly on twitter, facebook, and instagram. You all know it... you see me there. You might be on it as much.... I don't know. But What I do know is that I don't like it.... I don't want to be connected all the time.
2) I watch the news TOO much! I have been crying for 4 days. I'm not joking. I can't tear my eyes away from ABC or CNN. When the news isn't on in the house... I'm reading it on my damn phone or listening to it on NPR!
3) I had so much more fun yesterday NOT blogging than I had in a long time. I took time to appreciate every aspect of my life. I counted my blessings and I am vowing to not take my time for granted with my family.
4) Blogging is burning me out. The community that exists amongst you all is great. I have made a ton of friends. But I find the drama, the constant worry about stats, PR, monetizing my blog.... utterly exhausting.
I have blogger burn out my friends. And honestly... I just want to sit on the floor and play Lego's with my kids.
How do you battle blogger burnout? And how are you coping with the Newtown tragedy?